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Retrospective

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It's been almost a month since my last entry so I'll try to sum up what has happened in this time.

----- super fast retrospection of the last month ----

First of all, the whole thing with Daniel is officially over now. I spent the first week after Italy with chatting and talking with him and we get along very well. Two weeks ago, on Tuesday, there was our graduation joke - we spent the whole night at our school with funny things like drinking and breaking and entering.

Well, Daniel was also there and how does it usually ends when there is alcohol and a bit of love involved? Right we started making out. So far so good, there's nothing wrong with that but on thursday evening - only two days (or one day, if you take the night from tuesday to wednesday as one) later he wrote me on msn. "Oh I got a huge problem. I feel so bad - tuesday should have never happend because i am still attached to my ex-girlfriend."

That should have made me wiser but as stupid and naive as I am i believed him that he felt really bad and didn't wanted this to happen. I cried nearly two hours until my friends really cheered me up with things like how you can measure a boy's cock's length on the basis of his size of shoes.

On Friday evening there was our graduation and I felt really fine again. Everyone told me how good i looked and everything so I really thought "haha Daniel see what you're missing right now" . In the hall he sat right behind me but I just ignored him and talked with Jonas when i was turning around. Apart from that I was too nervous to think too much about him because i was presenting the "show" together with two other girls called Laura and Hannah. Everything went just great - everyone liked me on the stage and i won the prize for the best grade average - > 1,0 i still can't believe it. Never thought that I would be t h i s good one time but here I am.

After the show i managed to almost down two glasses of sparkling wine before me and my class made our way to the pub. But surprise, surprise - who was also there? Of course, Daniel and some of his mates. Well, I decided that we could be friends and sat down next to him to watch some pictures. Well before i am talking too long i'll better shorten that evening. We were making out again. I had asked him about his ex-girlfriend and he thought about it and it would be definitely over. Later he also said we would be officially a couple now.

As you can imagine I was really happy and it was an evening just perfect. I still think so, that evening was really perfect. The next evening there was a party down there in Engenhahn. My so called ex-boyfriend was also there and my best friend said he did search for me. But apparently not for long because shortly after he disappeared with his friends. At this time I was getting a little bit mad because i was really seeing forward to see him again. But whatever. On the next day on msn he actually told me the exact thing like on thursday. "Oh i feel sooo bad and I'm sooo sorry but i am still too attached to Laura... bla bla bla bla bla" Now i was really fucked up and said something like "You really need to grow up boy, do you think i am a fucking barbie that you can play with me like you want to? Forget it boy - for all i care you can spend years at forgetting your ex-girlfriend but now you can forget me, too!" To sum this up i meant: "Fuck off and die!"

That was one week ago and I actually feel good now. I didn't cry a tear for this stupid asshole. I deserve better than him and as I look back now, I think he just needed an excuse for not getting into a relationship so he said that he was still attached to his girlfriend. Never ever Daniel. When we made out you didn't even look at her with your ass so why should you care. Ok I'm getting really fucked up now so I better stop.

Let's go on with last week. I was on a work experience or whatever do you say for praktikum in english. I've been in a hospital and i actually enjoyed the time there. It was a really positive experience and a step forward in my decision what I should study.

Oh my gosh ... my english is getting worse all the time... i can't even find a suiting description of how bad it is. Really need to blog more often to improve my style and everything or else I won't get my good mark in english any more.

----------- end of the not really super fast retrospective -----



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This evening I'll go in the pub with a couple of my friends and on friday we're goin' to see the new Harry Potter!! Finally! I've waited so long for this. So what else can I tell you now that i got summer holidays and practically nothing happens around here? I discovered a very nice site called SchülerVZ where you can register yourself with your name and your school and can chat with other people from your school or from other schools. There are even groups you can join ( I'm in nearly 100 now ) and each group has its own forum. You can upload your pictures there, write pm's or leave a message at a friend's message board.

Oh fuck... my internet has just fucked off right now! Gosh how i hate this lame connection! It goes crazy every five minutes so i can't get anything done. At least i can write this also offline.... otherwise i would crack up! And I'm already very annoyed because I have to look up the unknown words in a dictionary instead of typing them just into dict.leo.org... what a waste of time!

Will try again to connect now... hope it works..

Oh sure... DAMN BELKIN NETWORK!!!!!!!!! I just can't get it started... I hate this damn PC and the damn network and the damn internet! So just fuck off and die!

Is it too early to eat dinner? It's because I'm really hungry right now and I'm bored so I need something to eat. I guess I'm saving this on my hard drive so I can blog it later when my internet connection works again so see you guys!

love u all

Jade
10.7.07 18:03


Internet works again

yay me, the internet works again

 watching TV right now - the simpsons - always delighting. Aaand I'm not hungry any more because of a huge portion of porridge i just ate.

I am thinking it's time for a new layout... the old one bores me. And I am thinking about a new provider for my blog.... the best one would be an english one.

See ya

 

Jade 

10.7.07 18:15


the wonderfully creative title of this day's entry

I hate titles on blog entrys. I can never imagine of something good and creative but writing all the time just "..." bores me so I'll have to think of something else to fill the emptyness in my mind.

Well, yesterday has been indeed very funny . We were like 7 or 8 people and we were having a quite nice talk and everything. Oh and we laughed a lot (most of the time about absolutely stupid things.. .well acohol, especially tequila and liqueur 43 with milk, is truly a thing to lift your spirits.

I found my list again on which I wrote possible subjects to blog about. Like important things comme red lipstick  or bad and bad boys (Besides.. i don't know anymore what the hell I meant with this.. hmm gonna imagine something...)  Another good subject would be the "just-be-yourself-lie" I mean how can you possibly be just yourself when you have no idea how you are when you are just yourself.

You see, just my daily soul waste. But since I got too much time because i have summer holidays and stopped playin' rpg's for a while. AND I am making mood Icons right now with some awesome pics i found on tfs.

song of the moment: dixie chicks - not ready to make nice

 yeah and i am not ready to make nice, too. I'm still mad at Daniel even if we only made out twice but such an asshole *grrrrr* why do I always like those boys? Why can't I discover some really nice guy who treats me good? (And who is hot)

 see u and love u

Jade 

11.7.07 23:53


of the moment

SONG of the moment: some slow fox *swinging*

MOOD of the moment: a combination between Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket and Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

ICON of the moment: Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

 

QUOTE of the moment: "My mom uses to say: if they jump off a building, would u do that, too? I tell her pssssshh I'd be the one to come up with that idea in the first place."

 

Okay I think thats enough of "things of the moment" I'm actually listening to some slow fox songs i found on my harddrive and although they're like 60 years old they're still pretty good. I almost can feel the vibrance through the speakers and I wish I could dance Slow Fox (damn they teach us the slow fox not until gold star or the dancing circle)

Besides I am working on a few new pieces of wonderful photoshop art. And I got even more ideas for possible mood icons so you probably won't get bored by them in the next couple of days. Today I earned 24 Euro with private lessons in english - yay me - so i can finance goin' to the cinema on Friday hehe. and goin' to the pub a bit more often ... holidays are soo great!

On monday I felt a bit bored because no one of my friends showed up in the messenger or something similar.. I even wished school back for a few moments!!! Can you imagine that?! How drunk must I have been to wish school back? Well now everything is just fine again.

As I am actually a big camera and comments whore i was pretty happy to see all the loovely comments on my new fotoshoot. (thanks boys i love u too - if u re hot) I even feel like doin' some art's requests ... I'm just too good for the world (not really)

Well... I'm runnin' out of ideas what to write so i'll finish today's entry here. Maybe I'll write something later in the night.

Love u all

Jade

12.7.07 19:24


fucking cinema

current mood:

 

Hey guys,

I'm feelin' pretty bad at the moment cuz I just found out that today is thursday. Hmm.. sounds not that bad, doesn't it? But the point is that now the private lessons and the film are overlapping. Seems that my friends are goin' to the cinema without me - fuck!

I can just hope that Theresa will go with me to to cinema or otherwise I'll have to go with my family... and that would truly suck!

Love you all

Jade

12.7.07 20:29


I love love my new school

 

current mood:

hey guys

just a little marginal note: i just surfed through a few profiles at the Schüler VZ and i have to admit that the boys at my new school look really like yummi!!! muhwah. I adore my new school from now on... but I guess as there are so much adorable boys there will be a lot of bitchy girly-girls around. Muhwah but all of the boys on whose profile i've been have been single - a definitely good sign.

Too sas that I can't have them all... but I guess I'm only havin' thoughts like this because it's too late this night. I better go to sleep so goodnight!

love you

Jade

13.7.07 01:57


Holidays

Just a little note:

In two days I will go on holiday for two weeks. So there won't be any new entrys. I'm so looking forward to go to Sweden, it's such a beautiful country!

So see you in two weeks (or if I should get bored tomorrow )

Love you

 

Jade 

19.7.07 16:01


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